Inspiration in my Bamboo Haven

So the recent Garden Adventures in the BoTan have been a great way to clear my mental mayhem. While the heat is no longer a heat wave, it still seems to have done substantial damage to my accute awareness, and it's taken days, if not weeks, for me to feel even close the peace I felt since before my menacing night out with Lena. Needless to say, whatever trouble we unleashed on Catani Gardens is still to catch up with us... Kharma has never been my friend, although I think i've been reasonably good up until my one very-Lena-influenced lapse.

Being at the BoTan helped me think. Its not so easy to clear your head space from all the unnecessary clutter acquired over the last few months. I'm glad I found this quiet slice of privacy. I've lovingly dubbed it my Bamboo Haven.
I suppose the tranquility allowed me to be at ease with myself again. I actually felt like dancing again while I was alone in there. I've gone through the idea over and over again since - could I really do it? Am I ready for it? Weighing up the pros and cons:

Pros:
Dancing is my whole life and its all I know
I'm good at it (and not to say that in any sort of arrogant way, but its actually something that I am genuinely good at.)
It's my way of expressing myself creatively.

Cons:
Her. I'm always and constantly reminded of her.
Every twirl, leap, step, every jump, every time I step on the floor, close my eyes, every time I even just think of dancing I think of Her.






Its awfully sad and terrifying flying solo...